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her, and at once she came to me.
Pressing the pillow against his left ear, I asked him if he heard me, but he
gave no sign. Removing the pillow and, repeating the question he answered
promptly that he did.
"Do you know you are deaf in the right ear?" I asked.
"Yes," he answered in a low, strong voice, "and worse than that.
My whole right side is affected. It seems asleep. I cannot move arm or leg."
"Feigning again?" I demanded angrily.
He shook his head, his stern mouth shaping the strangest, twisted smile. It
was indeed a twisted smile, for it was on the left side only, the facial
muscles of the right side moving not at all.
"That was the last play of the Wolf," he said. "I am paralysed. I
shall never walk again. Oh, only on the other side," he added, as though
divining the suspicious glance I flung at his left leg, the knee of which had
just then drawn up, and elevated the blankets.
"It's unfortunate," he continued. "I'd liked to have done for you first,
Hump. And I thought I had that much left in me."
"But why?" I asked; partly in horror, partly out of curiosity.
Again his stern mouth framed the twisted smile, as he said:
"Oh, just to be alive, to be living and doing, to be the biggest bit of the
ferment to the end, to eat you. But to die this way."
He shrugged his shoulders, or attempted to shrug them, rather, for the left
shoulder alone moved. Like the smile, the shrug was twisted.
"But how can you account for it?" I asked. "Where is the seat of your
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trouble?"
"The brain," he said at once. "It was those cursed headaches brought it on."
"Symptoms," I said.
He nodded his head. "There is no accounting for it. I was never sick in my
life. Something's gone wrong with my brain. A cancer, a tumour, or something
of that nature, - a thing that devours and destroys. It's attacking my
nerve-centres, eating them up, bit by bit, cell by cell - from the pain."
"The motor-centres, too," I suggested.
"So it would seem; and the curse of it is that I must lie here, conscious,
mentally unimpaired, knowing that the lines are going down, breaking bit by
bit communication with the world. I cannot see, hearing and feeling are
leaving me, at this rate I shall soon cease to speak; yet all the time I shall
be here, alive, active, and powerless."
"When you say YOU are here, I'd suggest the likelihood of the soul," I said.
"Bosh!" was his retort. "It simply means that in the attack on my brain the
higher psychical centres are untouched. I can remember, I can think and
reason. When that goes, I go. I am not. The soul?"
He broke out in mocking laughter, then turned his left ear to the pillow as a
sign that he wished no further conversation.
Maud and I went about our work oppressed by the fearful fate which had
overtaken him, - how fearful we were yet fully to realize.
There was the awfulness of retribution about it. Our thoughts were deep and
solemn, and we spoke to each other scarcely above whispers.
"You might remove the handcuffs," he said that night, as we stood in
consultation over him. "It's dead safe. I'm a paralytic now.
The next thing to watch out for is bed sores."
He smiled his twisted smile, and Maud, her eyes wide with horror, was
compelled to turn away her head.
"Do you know that your smile is crooked?" I asked him; for I knew that she
must attend him, and I wished to save her as much as possible.
"Then I shall smile no more," he said calmly. "I thought something was wrong.
My right cheek has been numb all day. Yes, and I've had warnings of this for
the last three days; by spells, my right side seemed going to sleep, sometimes
arm or hand, sometimes leg or foot."
"So my smile is crooked?" he queried a short while after. "Well, consider
henceforth that I smile internally, with my soul, if you please, my soul.
Consider that I am smiling now."
And for the space of several minutes he lay there, quiet, indulging his
grotesque fancy.
The man of him was not changed. It was the old, indomitable, terrible Wolf
Larsen, imprisoned somewhere within that flesh which had once been so
invincible and splendid. Now it bound him with insentient fetters, walling
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his soul in darkness and silence, blocking it from the world which to him had
been a riot of action.
No more would he conjugate the verb "to do in every mood and tense." "To be"
was all that remained to him - to be, as he had defined death, without
movement; to will, but not to execute; to think and reason and in the spirit
of him to be as alive as ever, but in the flesh to be dead, quite dead.
And yet, though I even removed the handcuffs, we could not adjust ourselves to
his condition. Our minds revolted. To us he was full of potentiality. We
knew not what to expect of him next, what fearful thing, rising above the
flesh, he might break out and do.
Our experience warranted this state of mind, and we went about our work with
anxiety always upon us.
I had solved the problem which had arisen through the shortness of the shears.
By means of the watch-tackle (I had made a new one), I
heaved the butt of the foremast across the rail and then lowered it to the
deck. Next, by means of the shears, I hoisted the main boom
on board. Its forty feet of length would supply the height necessary properly
to swing the mast. By means of a secondary tackle I had attached to the
shears, I swung the boom to a nearly perpendicular position, then lowered the
butt to the deck, where, to prevent slipping, I spiked great cleats around it.
The single block of my original shears-tackle I had attached to the end of the
boom. Thus, by carrying this tackle to the windlass, I could raise and lower
the end of the boom at will, the butt always remaining stationary, and, by
means of guys, I could swing the boom from side to side. To the end of the
boom I had likewise rigged a hoisting tackle; and when the whole arrangement
was completed I could not but be startled by the power and latitude it gave
me.
Of course, two days' work was required for the accomplishment of this part of
my task, and it was not till the morning of the third day that I swung the
foremast from the deck and proceeded to square its butt to fit the step. Here
I was especially awkward. I sawed and chopped and chiselled the weathered
wood till it had the appearance of having been gnawed by some gigantic mouse.
But it fitted.
"It will work, I know it will work," I cried.
"Do you know Dr. Jordan's final test of truth?" Maud asked.
I shook my head and paused in the act of dislodging the shavings which had
drifted down my neck.
"Can we make it work? Can we trust our lives to it? is the test."
"He is a favourite of yours," I said.
"When I dismantled my old Pantheon and cast out Napoleon and Caesar and their
fellows, I straightway erected a new Pantheon," she answered gravely, "and the
first I installed as Dr. Jordan."
"A modern hero."
"And a greater because modern," she added. "How can the Old World heroes
compare with ours?"
I shook my head. We were too much alike in many things for
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argument. Our points of view and outlook on life at least were very alike.
"For a pair of critics we agree famously," I laughed.
"And as shipwright and able assistant," she laughed back.
But there was little time for laughter in those days, what of our heavy work
and of the awfulness of Wolf Larsen's living death.
He had received another stroke. He had lost his voice, or he was losing it.
He had only intermittent use of it. As he phrased it, the wires were like the
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